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Well I didn’t lose this week , although I stayed the same. I think I am doing that plauteau thing which I knew sooner or later that would happen! Oh well at least I did not gain, I was proud of myself for that! This week has been hectic and I know I didn’t get in all of my WW points on some days and I think that is the reason for not losing any weight! My nutritionist tells me to get all my points in because I won’t lose weight if I am not eating enough throughout the day! I have hypoglycemia therefore I have to eat mini meals all day long in order to keep my blood sugar balanced out. I have been eating six mini meals a day and it does help with losing weight and also keeping my sugar balanced! Things are going in the right direction at least!

I think starting Monday I am going to go on the six week body makeover diet to kind of give my body a push so I can start losing more each week. I originally ordered the six week body makeover because I had a friend who was on it and lost lots of weight really quickly and she now maintains it with that diet and absolutley loves it. She eats according to what her body needs by body type. I never really did the diet because I decided that it was not for me and I would like WW better. I never returned it because I figured when I would go into a plauteau or needed a change from WW then I could do that, so this week I am going to do that in order to lose some weight and catch up to what my long-term goal is! At this rate I will not be making my long-term goal and that is just not cool with me! I can’t beat myself up to badly because that does no good as I have found out in the past! Staying the same weight is better than gaining any day!

I have lost my five pounds this week , which is what I wanted to lose last week but I didn’t quite make it but I didn’t give up and I decided that I was going to lose no matter what and I DID! I am so happy and proud of myself! When I got on that scale this morning and saw that I was acutally under the 330 lbs mark I just cried ….pure tears of joy!! I know I can do this , I am doing it and I have proved that to myself! Since I joined buddyslim I have only lost 5 lbs but all togather since starting WW 18 months ago I have lost a total of 80 lbs and to me that is ACCOMPLISHMENT!

This morning when I told my boyfriend that I had lost five more pounds he was happy for me and proud of me and that made me feel really, really good. Even though he tells me that he loves me no matter how much I weigh, I know deep down he would love to see me at my goal weight! He met me heavy and has never once belittled me for it or anything and I appreciate that since my last relationship where my ex-husband would belittle me and down me for the weight I had put on in our ten year marriage! Since my divorce I have changed soooo much and even though I hate change, I am loving this positive change in my life. I am getting healthier and feeling so much better physically, emotionally, and mentally that it is just wonderful! I love life again and that is important!!

 I gained 2 lbs this week and I am not really sure why! I am really disappointed in myself and here I thought I was going to lose 5 lbs, at least that was my goal for this week! I know I can’t let this get me to down in the dumps but instead I have to keep on going and keep on track. I think one of the worst things is to get so down about it that you just stop your diet and essentially give up! Well I am not the giving up type especially when it comes to my health! I am determined to get this weight off and with the help of all of my buddyslim friends and the worker bees I know I can do this! I just hope I have not disappointed my team It’s the first week and I have gained so it really sucks!

This next week I already know what I am going to do in order to lose weight and I think I know what I did wrong. I record everything that I eat in a food journal that I bought at Barnes and Noble and I was looking back on that and even though I stayed within my WW points , I still didn’t lose weight and that was what was bothering me about it, until I looked at my food journal from this past week. I think I ate to many servings of grains…I noticed that I was eating five servings of grains/breads and that right there I think is the problem. I did stay within my points but I think I have trained my body to not crave or need sugar as much but yet I had five servings of grains each day last week and that turns into sugars …so I am going to cut down on the grains this week and drink lots more water and eat lots more veggies and fruits instead of the grains so much!

I just hate myself when I gain! I find that I am much harder on myself than any friend, or relative could be! My boyfriend is sooo sweet about it , when I told him I had gained I thought for sure he would be disappointed in me and upset but he just said that was ok and he would help me to figure out what went wrong this week! He is such a sweetheart and has been a true help and great support for me this whole time! He tells me he loves me just the way I am but he also knows that I really, really want to lose weight and be healthy so he supports me in all ways. My main reason to get the weight off is my health but I have other reasons to and one of them is I want to look good for him, he has never seen me thin because when he met me I was overweight and at my highest weight too. But he is the best guy and I couldn’t ask for anything more!

I had a weight loss this morning and I was happy to see myself go under the 331 mark I am now at 328 so not to bad for just now getting back into the swing of things! Of course I am always happy to see a loss of any kind, even if it’s only a half of pound. I never used to be that way though! When I first started this journey I started losing big amounts each week ( like 10 & 12 pounds at a time) and I was in my glory but after about 50 lbs lost my body started to slow down and I was only seeing anywhere from 2 to 5 lb loss and that kind of got me down because I wanted to see the bigger losses again! But I now know that I won’t be able to see a big loss all of the time and I am now just happy to see a loss , no matter how big or small because it’s better than gaining! Another thing I find myself doing alot of is weighing myself almost on a daily basis and I am trying not to do that but it’s sometimes hard not to do …..but this morning I was sure glad I got on to see where my progress was!

The last couple of days have been hard for me. For some reason I am craving sugar, which I am not sure why because I have pretty much cut out alot of sugar out of my diet. I try to buy everything sugar-free when possible and then I treat myself once a week to a sweet indulgence, but always something within my points. I am hanging on though and not giving in to overeating or over indulging! These last couple of weeks I have been hanging around the 331 mark and that is because of some set backs, but I am determined to get to my mini goal of 321. My nutritionist assures me that I might be going through a plateau ….but I also know it’s because I slacked off some because of some family events in the last couple of weeks, so I think it may be a combination of those two. But nevertheless I am going to get to my mini goal that I set for myself!

Well it’s Monday and weigh in day for me! I gained 0.4 lb and in the past I would have beat myself up for even this slight weight gain but I have learned through this journey that there is no sense in beating myself up for any kind of weight gain but rather stay postive and plan to do better the next week! I know why I gained the 0.4 lb …I had a family get togather this past weekend and I went off points, it’s hard when I get togather for a family event , it’s my one weakness for going off points. I had already prepared myself for this and I think that is why I am having the positive attitude and taking it well.

I never used to have such a positive attitude before though, it’ s been a long hard road for me to get where I am at today. I attribute it to a book I read and am rereading now, it’s called “The Beck Diet Solution, train your brain to think like a thin person”, it’s a very good book and it teaches you how to stop sabotoging thoughts and negative thinking and there are also alot of good tips in the book about weight loss and how to eat slower at meals, take your time to savor the food ect. The book works with any diet that your on ….this book is not a diet book …it simply helps you to stay on the diet that your on. The author has a Ph.D. and it’s a good book. So yes I gained but this week will be better and I will lose!

I am new here to buddyslim but not to weight loss. I have been on the weight watchers diet now for a little over a year and a half and so far so good. To date I have lost 75 lbs and I am like a new person. I have alot more to go but it’s a start and it’s as far as I have gotten with losing weight. I joined buddyslim hoping to make some online diet buddies and form some friendships along the way. I have alot of support from friends, family and my boyfriend but I would also like some online support with those who are going through the same thing. I think it’s easier to identify with someone who has the same weight issues.

Hmmm where to start, I guess I can start telling about myself a little. I am 33 years old and I have been battling with a weight issue for a little over seven years now. Stress, work, and dealing with life has effected me in a negative way and the way I dealt with those things was by eating, thus I gained alot of weight. But I am ready to change all of that and that is why a little over a year and a half ago I decided it was time to lose the weight once and for all and that is what I am doing and I plan on to continue until I get to my goal weight of 170 lbs. I will get there and I believe that! I hope to meet alot of new friends here. Thanks for reading!